A picture of me

This picture is from 1975, I was 4 y old, and most of my friends who watched this picture said that is a sad situation, as long as I can remember I have never liked brown dolls, but blond dolls, the fact the doll is on the stairs shows I don't care about it because she's brown, and alone as me.
I stayed most of the time in the garden because they smoked at home and I have asthma. My psy doubts always about sexual abuses when I was a baby, but the most curious fact is that is my father who took this picture....
At 4 y old I trust only my grand father, and when he was away I stayed alone.