Fred didn't come last sunday

Martine is loosing her time on Facebook
This is a fake of my favourite readings when I was a kid.

He wrote on sunday just to tell how much he cried for his training, but I know he just tried to justify himself . He didn't tell that he was sorry to not come for going make some photographies.
Men are always scared when I have to meet them, or just talking online with them, they are rude, or coward, and I'm tired of that.
I don't like when Ken talks to me as I was obsessed by my father, he thinks I have an obsession as Freud described in his trash book's. I think he was drunk talking to me, or he did that because I'm scaring.I have been suffering of headaches for a week, Why do I feel so guilt ?
I like Facebook, but only for private messages.

I have talked to Michelle, and this is the first time I have talked to an American Woman on MSN, she's the most sensitive and smart woman I have met online.

My last doctor's consultation

I'm sorry she's as much stupid as Segolene Royal in France ! Viva Obama !
On last friday, I went to consult my doctor, of course she receives people without making an appointment. When we arrived there, there was a post it telling "I'll be here on 5 pm, it was 4pm, so we waited, and another woman arrived, she looked at us, sighing, and she couldn't stop to walk ...and another one came, with sun glasses, it was not raining but the sun wasn't here, I was watching as the little birds who were singing in the sky. The last one told us "Hello", so I answered "Hello", then on 5pm the doctor was coming, I watched how the others two were acting, we were the first to come, so I waited until her dogs and her entered in her house, and I followed her.
But this situation was weird, people don't speak together, people are invidualist, that is sad, but hopefully I have a big imagination, watching people who were walking in the village, I saw Hillary Clinton, Cecilia Sarkozy, and other V.I.P.
I'm in my own world without all these quiet people.

Goggle and some surprises !!! lol

Someone from Ryad visited my blog yesterday he was looking for "humps in penis", that made me laugh !

The rules for ART Y PICO's awards

1/Graham==>Im just creative
2/Franscud==>Caught in the stream
3/Fabio Massimo==>L'apologo dell'Epilogo
4/Geoffrey==>Falling Forwards
1/Michelle==>Dirty little Secret

1) Choose 5 blogs that are considered deserving of this award for creativity, design and materials used, as well as a contribution to the community of bloggers, regardless of the language!

2) present the award, bringing the name of the donor and the link to his blog, so that everyone can visit;

3) contain the names of winners and links to their blog;

4) the award must show the link to the blog ART Y PICO, where the initiative was born;

5) publish these rules.

Fr@n, very confused to make some choices !

The bus driver

When I was 11, I used to take a bus between 12ham and 01h30pm for coming back home for the lunch. I liked it because I took the bus with people, and not with students of my school.
But with my victim face's, the driver asked me to count his money while he was driving, and not any persons asked him why he used me for that every day. And I couldn't say 'No' because I was scared. I was always afraid to take the bus because of this old pervert man, and I counted money quickly because I wanted to left and go with people.
Once, a bad girls band talked to me before the bus was stopping. They stole jewels in shops, and I didn't care about that, because I felt they were pleasant with me. The Bus came and the driver said "you you stay here, you know why". One of the girl said "do you know him ?" , I said "no, he just wants I counts his money", she said "stay with me". When he realized I was far away from him, he said "Oh come on", and the girl said "No she won't anymore, big pervert". These girls were really protecting me, I could find protection only with dropouts, but I didn't mind.I felt secure with them, and I loved their way to live. Hopefully I met them, they helped me to say "No" to the fucking people who wanted to abuse me.
Sweat Dreams....

I 'll see Frederic next week !

I feel glad, because he was Eric's friend, my first boy friend, and once doing some shopping, I talked to Fred, and we have same hobbies, we like photography and both we will photographs some villages of my region, I'll put the pictures here.
Fred left his girlfriend, he was alcoolic, because he had to live same traumas as me when he was a kid.

This week

I have spent from tuesday to today most of my time in bed because of an headache crisis.The pain was too hard to bear, once I took my head in my hands, I cried because meds did nothing to help.
I would love to meet Frederic one of my friend living in Marseille this week end, I wanna take some picture of my childhood village.
I felt happy to receive my sexy dress, and my hand bag, it's may but it's cold, raining and raining, and the price of oil, the price of foods, we are getting mad.

I'm proud of France because of the gold Palm

Sean Penn, is not someone who laughs easily, I have seen a lot of shows or a stupid french journalist tried to talk to Sean, but without success.
I feel we can appreciate Sean with his movies, or acts.
There is an article of Canadian Journalism about Sean Peen in Cannes.
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Cannes: Sean Penn wants to make "the opposite" of Oscars

There is 1 day

PARIS - Sean Penn, who chairs the jury of the Cannes Film Festival, seeks to "emancipate the effects of mode" to "be honest" and "the opposite of the Academy of Oscars" in drawing up the charts, waited sunday.

"We must do everything the opposite of the Academy Awards, whose winners are a consummate art of manipulation, a very good marketing," he explained in an interview with the newspaper Le Monde dated Sunday-Monday.

If a general emphasis is placed on the cinematic experience "in the broadest sense," political questions are raised by each member of the jury from films or elements that film, on the surface, are not, "said the actor.

He confesses in this regard be "happy not having to serve" the jury to 2004, which was chaired by Quentin Tarantino, was awarded the Palme d'Or to Michael Moore for his anti-Bush film "Fahrenheit 9 / 11. "

"If I had been in his place, this case would have tortured."

Whether the Palme served the cause of Michael Moore, Sean Penn wants to be realistic: "He lost his battle, like all those who fought against the war in Iraq, including me."

Still surprised that we entrust the responsibility of the Cannes jury "to an American, whatsoever," he confides be "embarrassed by the idea of competition" and do not always "see as many films on the same day. "

"I'm not a cinephile. I'm not going to so many times in film," continued the actor, prices of interpretation at Cannes in 1997 for his role in "She's so lovely" and Oscar winner in 2004 for his performance in "Mystic River".

Citing a "very good harvest of films" at this 61st edition, the chairman of the jury "just regret that no more comedies in the competition." He attributed the under-representation of such a "mistrust of distributors who fear that exposure Cannes adversely affect their film" but also "snobbery who wants a comedy can not be a great movie."

Satisfied with his experience to head the jury, he asserts, however, that his best memory of Cannes dates back to 1984, "the first time I've come." It was his first trip to Europe: "Nobody knew me. I drank a lot, I saw one movie: 'Once upon a time in America'. I am amused as a fool, I walked everywhere. ""

Happy Birthday Fran

Happy Birthday
envoyé par ringrp

About 2 days I'll be 37 y old

And I'm feeling better, I haven't called my therapist yet for stopping the meetings, but I'll do it next week.
I don't cry anymore, but my feet are painful. I can't walk actually or put any shoes.
For my birthday I have planed to be drunk, so vodka and Perier coco citron, and a big cake, because I haven't celebrated my birthday for years !
I'm expecting my last dress, I have ordered last week, it's my birthday's gift. I just picture men looking at me wearing this sexy dress.
So it's a very superficial post, but I need it.

The meeting with the therapist

I started talking to her, telling the denied letter, and everything I have lived these last weeks, she said only "pursue", "what are you thinking about" and she wrote on paper things I guess who were interesting.
At the end, I asked "do you think my headaches will stop now, because I have sent a letter to my mother... I know my headaches come from my guilty feelings." And she answered without watching me " I don't know, it isn't too easy !".
Well I came back home, and I said to myself "this is the last time you see her" and I don't want to meet her again. She's not the right doctor, she's a Freud's disciple.

I have cried yesterday again.

Thanks to my friends

I have really enjoyed the Michelle's comment, and I thank everyone who leaved me a message, an mail (as Geoffrey). I feel better now after last day when I cried for one hour.I didn't want to meet again my mother, but I wanted to have some informations, about which is my father. This point is very hard to bear, I have to deal with "?".....

Attacks of nerves

Yesterday when I mentionned I used to sleep all the time ; after that I had an attack of nerves, I felt angry and I don't know why, I took my pills and pills for headache, it helped me to cry and to sleep.
When Laurent brought me my meal, I ate it as I was a mouse and as I had no time to stay visible for too long.
I feel that the fact I ignore my identity, drives me to madness, I mean I wanna disappear.
But on afternoon I went to town, I was wearing my black and white dress, and I felt uncomfortable. Hopefully I meet my therapist next week.

Last week

I spent my week sleeping, morning, afternoon, nothing was interesting for me, nothing, I felt down because of the letter, then on friday, I started to cry, I needed it, because this is a way for me to forget.
But I feel sad, I'll be back later.
Forgive me, I think about you all.

My new hand bag

ordered today...